Yeah that pretty much sums it up. Life=better.

I feel as if this has happened before. You gave me hope. Hope that I had finally found the right one. Hope that I wouldn’t have to stress over these things anymore. I suppose I was wrong. You leave me here with nothing but the smell of you on my clothes. The thoughts of how things could’ve been. The worry of if it was something I did to you. You say that its you and not me. That you just don’t think that you could bear hurting anyone else. You say you like me yet you won’t give me a chance. You won’t give me a chance to prove that you don’t have to be that way. I can say that I’m done with caring but I won’t be able to stop. This same thing is going to keep happening to me just as it has for the past 2 years. I just want things to be how they were when we were together.

Today before I got out of the car to head toward the gates of hell (school), I saw this girl standing by one of the buildings calling someone. I had no idea who she was but she was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. I wanted to go up and say something to her but she heading into the building before I got out of the car. I got out and decided to see if I could catch up with her. I walked into the school maybe 10 seconds after her and she was nowhere in sight. I realized that I may not ever see this girl again in a school of 2500 people. I’m kinda depressed now.